Posted December 11, 2018 09:13:59 I had been stuck in a room for three weeks, watching TV with a few friends and chatting away about my favourite sports.
The next thing I knew I was standing up in front of my family and screaming, “This is terrible!”
I knew what was going to happen next: I would be in the middle of a debate with my partner and I would go limp on the sofa.
“I know you’re not going to like this, but I think it’s time to stop,” I said.
We laughed, then walked to the car and I tried to get in.
It was dark and I didn’t have my headlamp.
My feet started to hurt, and I thought I was going crazy.
But then I got to the front of the room and I could finally stand up.
I could barely move, but it was like I was moving from a rock to a solid block.
As the debate raged, I couldn’t breathe.
I was so scared.
I remember the first time I was really scared and then I thought: “I’m going to do something stupid.”
But it was really funny and I was like, “I can’t do that.”
I’m still scared of things like falling over, getting hit by a car or being pushed into a wall.
I still don’t know how I will be able to handle my emotions if I start to fall down.
But I know I can’t just sit there and say, “Oh well, I’ll go and go, just sit down”.
I’m so used to sitting and feeling nothing and being just there.
When I’m in a debate, I can feel my nerves.
But when I’m standing up I’m feeling so much more.
I feel so much better about myself and I feel like I’m able to speak to people.
So when I see someone who is struggling with something, I want to get to them.
It’s a great feeling to see that someone has done the work and taken the time to listen and understand you.
You see people who are struggling with their emotions and you see them struggle with their feelings and you just want to help them.
But you don’t want to take away their power.
You want to give them that power back.
You need to understand the person, but you don-t want to turn them into a problem.
So I always say to people, “Don’t take them away.”
Because I’m going into a room full of people who might be struggling, and you can see the problem.
And the problem is: I’m not a problem for anyone.
The problem is for myself.
When you see people struggling, you need to be able see it for yourself.
And that’s why I have this message: If you can, if you have the ability to listen to yourself, to understand yourself, you can stop feeling like you have to be a good person.
You can learn to listen.
It might sound a bit cheesy but when I think about it, I’ve always wanted to be like this.
I always wanted everyone to listen when they were struggling.
And now, I think that’s possible.
I’ve had the same thing happen to me, and it’s a huge help to have this support.
I’m learning that I have to do it all myself.
I started doing it when I was 11.
I would sit on the toilet and talk to myself, trying to find out what I needed to do to help myself and to find a way to deal with my emotions.
Then I would try and find the right words to say to myself: “It’s okay.
It doesn’t matter.
I am here.
I can do this.”
I had to stop when I started to get too angry and I found myself saying, “No, I’m a bad person, I should just go home and cry.”
So I stopped and I got on with my life.
But in my mind, I was still struggling.
So that’s how I started thinking: I’ll learn to deal in my own way.
And I’ve learnt that it’s okay to talk to yourself.
I realised that I was talking to myself in my head.
When my mum and I were trying to get my grades up, we went out and had some drinks.
And then, when we were walking home, we looked up at the sky and I realised we had just seen the most beautiful thing in the world: the full moon.
We were so happy and it made me so happy.
I felt so good.
I had just won the lottery and I had won the most incredible thing in my life, the most amazing gift in my entire life, a life of freedom.
I loved it.
I knew that when I went out to eat with my friends, that was when I would get to know who I really was.
It made me feel good to feel comfortable